I know I haven’t been very present on here for awhile. It’s been like a month and I feel horrible about it, I’ve been meaning to post, I just haven’t gotten to it.
I’m still busy and tired and life is still crazy for me, but I know that if I don’t make the time to sit down and post, it’ll never happen.
Time doesn’t magically free up, you have to prioritize and make time for the things you love.
I got sick and I got my period at the same time, which any girl knows is like the worst combination in the world, but I mean… what are ya gonna do, ya know? 😔
So, I’m sitting in bed in my mis-matched jammies, dirty hair, pain and bloating, writing this before I go to bed for the night. I know, I really am struggling haha 😂
I’ve been struggling with some personal stuff lately, and I won’t get into what it is exactly, but I just want to talk about some stuff that I’ve been learning. I feel like the message that all of us get from society, from our families, from whoever, basically the socially acceptable thing to do when someone asks, “how are you,” is to say that we’re okay.
I don’t know why that is, but it always slips out, even when I’m not really okay. It’s just what I say, what we all say.
There’s this societal construct that tells us that we should be happy all the time and that there’s something wrong with us if we’re not. But it shouldn’t be that way! Everyone has down days, everyone goes through bad stuff, everyone struggles, everyone leads a different life, and what may not seem hard for one person could be really hard for someone else.
I know it’s hard to tell people what’s really going on, that we’re not okay all the time, I get that. I’m pretty much like the least sociable person in the world. But I can’t keep putting on a good front and pretending like everything’s okay when it’s not.
I’ve been struggling with some stuff for a long time now and until I can get through it, I have to stop saying that I’m okay, that I’m fine, that nothing’s wrong. I have to at least be honest with the people that I love and let them in and let them help me. It’s never fun to be hurting. No one wants to be in any kind of pain, but especially not on their own.
It’s time to stop pretending that we’re okay and just admit that we’re not always okay. It’s okay to not be okay all the time. We’re human, we break, we hurt, we cry, we struggle. It’s not all sunshine and rainbows all the time. But oh boy, when those bright, happy times come, it is so worth it all.
I don’t mean this post to be a downer, I mean it to be an encouragement. If you’re going through personal stuff like I am, and you’re really not okay, don’t beat yourself up. It’s gonna be alright in the end.
It’s okay to not be okay.