Be Your Own Kind of Beautiful

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I was aimlessly scrolling through Pinterest tonight looking at pretty pastel wallpapers with quotes on them and I suddenly got inspired to write a blog post.

The particular quote that I saw read something like, “I decided to be happy because it’s good for my health,” and it was just so simple. I just kinda sat there dumbfounded for a minute or two.

There are so many times that we make happiness out to be this big giant thing that we’re all striving for and it seems like this impossible journey to get to be happy.

But really, happiness is an emotion. It comes and it goes and it happens whether you try for it or not. What I want is joy. Joy is something that you can choose to be. Joy is something that can stick with you through the bad times and the good. Joy is a lifestyle choice.

I’m realizing more and more that while happiness comes and goes with my circumstances, joy is something that can stay with me always and make the bad times just a little bit better. How? Because it’s a perspective. Joy isn’t an emotion, it’s not necessarily something that you feel all the time. Yes, you can feel joy, but it’s not really a feeling. It’s how you look at life.

Joy is what makes you look at a bad situation and realize, I’m gonna get through this. Joy is the thing that makes you realize there’s a light at the end of that tunnel you’re in. And choosing joy is what makes you different than the people around you grumbling and complaining about every little thing. Choosing joy is how you can smile through the tears and know that everything is gonna work out.

And of course, joy is a choice given to me by Jesus. He’s slowly but surely showing me that despite my less than ideal situations that life seems to be throwing my way, joy is His opportunity for me to look at the bright side. It’s His way of showing me, hey, here’s a helpful tool for you to move on and grow through this.

I’m not gonna say that it’s been an easy thing to learn, because it hasn’t been. And I’m not gonna pretend that I’ve got it mastered yet, because I don’t. But I’m learning, I’m growing. It’s the kind of growth that happens on the inside and just slowly kinda peaks through to the outside the bigger it gets.

I know there are some people who would point their fingers at me and say that I’m not growing at all because they can’t see anything on the outside. But ya know what? There are always going to be those people. You can’t let it get to you. They aren’t you and they don’t know what’s going on in your heart. Only you can be you, and the only growth that matters is the growth that happens in you. That applies to everyone.

I mean, if you think about it, we’re all groups of very different individuals. And while we all may have some similarities and stuff in common, we aren’t the same. We grow through different things, we have different dreams, we move at different paces, and some of us show growth outwardly and some of us grow on the inside before it starts to show on the outside. I don’t even know if that makes sense to anyone but me. But it’s a thought I’ve been thinking lately.

To focus on someone’s outward show of growth is such a vain, frivolous thing. It’s so very shallow. I don’t ever want to be that person. I want to be the kind of person that is so focused on growing inwardly that it slowly begins to just shine through me. We all know those people who just kinda light you up. There’s this guy at church and his life hasn’t been perfect, his family has gone through stuff, he’s gone through stuff right along with them. But he’s grown inwardly, and it doesn’t necessarily show through his acts, it doesn’t show through his church attendance, it shows through his personality and his genuine warmth and worship of God. He is such a genuine Christian and it’s so inspiring, but not because of what he does, it’s inspiring because of who he is because of what he’s grown through.

See what I’m saying? It’s not about your outward actions, it’s about who you are. It’s about being with God and not trying to prove through actions that you are with God. As a daughter of the King, I don’t have to prove anything to anyone. I just have to focus on growing as a person in my own personal walk with Jesus.

Anyway, I guess I just wanted to say that it’s okay to stop doing things and just focus on being someone. Focus on being who you’re supposed to be, because that person is beautiful and unique and no one can be you but you. So go out there and be yourself! And make mistakes and learn from them! And choose joy in your everyday life so that you don’t get sucked down into the dark abyss of politics and society’s demands and family demands and all that negative stuff. Be a light to someone out there. Because this world needs all the light it can get.

I’m rambling now, so I’m gonna stop here. But if you made it all the way through this, thank you so much for reading! I love sharing my thoughts with y’all ❤

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